In this superficial world,
U may think thats all you get from what you see.
I am definitely not as SIMPLE as what you think,
Neither do I wish to live up to your expectations
So whatever you read,
And whether U like it or not,
It's none of my business to care..no matter how hard u try to make me.;P
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
phew...getting used to my hectic bz life.
sch to abt 2plus,3plus..then mug at the library with random ppl and then cheer at 6 or sth..juz had a econs test todae..LOl..really hope to do well for this topic.i even studied after ytd's cheer practice..
was soo exhausted.
woke up wif body aches for awhile..
then mug history with othniel whom i met at the external validation meeting for cg chairpersons.LOL.eh,they had POP talent show,i didnt go okay?went to study instd.
i photocopied some papers..ought to be completed soon..but cheer is time-consuming and tiring..but fulfilling..
ahhhhhhhhhhh
so many things to do tis wk.
thurs-history test(wat the hell m i online for?sigh,the more i read,i think the more i forget.)
fri-external validator interview in the morn(so im gna miss econs lect)muz read thru!
cheerleading review for all houses..(muz perfect stunts and steps tmr!)
lit consultation with yap(oh shit,muz prepare raju essay!)
taekwondo at nite..weeeeeeeeeee..i will fail grading..lol,nervous attack.
sat---church service!yay.met two great innovian j3s who r in the army now,one of them currently sharing with me his army life..
its sooo fun la..
maybe i shld go if i fail my aces.
hahs
11:46 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
oh hello folks!
welcome to my beloved blog once again..
i realized that i haf so many readers who juz refused to tag my blog..
how wonderful...who would tend to regurgitate what i wrote to me personally..
come on..TAG PEOPLE!
hmm..had a rather okay weekend.
meet the parents session in sch was HORRIBLE on a friday night.
my mummy listened intently to the principal,had a rather long chat with ms leong and yanks with kiran's mum on how time is very short..
ouch..my life took a turn since that night..
shes been nagging at me abt studies..something she hasnt done since i entered secondary school..at least to me of course.apparently,she didnt haf to worry for me coz i was the daughter who went express..
made me rush back after dinner and service on sat night..and to appease her and assure her that my studies will not be affected by church,i mugged history till 1am.
then juz tis morning again,she insist that i need to come out wif a topic lists for her..both econs and history.
ouch..so painstakingly,i chunked out every topic i learnt since last yr.
before that,i had to go down to popular and buy assessment bks and stationary..sigh.
I LOVE JANET!
if she wasnt here for me throughout this time,i would haf died or be miserable till tmr comes man..
we went crazy after awhile and started cam-hogging..
lol,shall post those pics up soon.
i did my lit template!
well..i did the least work todae as compared to my other daes..
11:31 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
LIfe
this is gonna be my new beginning..
anticipation
gosh..this guy who wrote the poem..
he needs to watch his tenses
shall write a new one...
especially for my loves....FRENds!
11:24 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Can you hear that?
Pieces of glass falling and shattering on the ground.
No,Im wrong..
the glass is hollow..
Unlike the heart,it is empty inside.
While in this tiny heart,
lies sorrow,remorse and regrets..
Behind that broken mask..
significant placed on the last line.
stacey scribbles.
5:47 PM
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Flame,
is what i feel inside.
Hate,
is what i wish to express
Hurt,
is simply intolerable
Beneath that wry cheery smile,
that smile which most probably brighten up someone's day..
i am crushed by that inner most pain i feel within.
not by those happy faces i see in school nor the teachers' exclamation of joy,
i am not heartless,
but rather, your words were like arrows stabbing straight into my big yet vulnerable heart
piercing me from all width and sides,
just like a thousand needles on my feet..tiny yet painful.
u make me hate u.
let me repeat tis..im not cinderella, i dun need u to rescue me or in this case,tell me what u plan for urself..u self-centered jerk. after 3yrs of waiting for me and another 6-7mths of loving me..all u do is to bring back one conflict and kill us all.?! how long do u wanna continue tis vicious cycle.?
11:19 PM
Monday, April 7, 2008
sigh...
i dun wanna tok abt it.
i dunno if its a gd thing or a bad thing
he wants my true happiness..i can tell
but told me not to wait for him..dun want me to be even more hurt after waiting for two yrs.--implying tt i shldnt resist change
im glad u r happy wif ur life now..im used to my life too..i mean at least,i dun look back and miz u too much.
u juz hope we can be buddies..as before.
hugs....its gna take time.
i kw.
11:40 PM
Sunday, April 6, 2008
my latest craze..cant stop listening to this song but imeem is failing on me so i cant change song for my blog but heres the lyrics..
cinderella by tata young.
When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory
I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me
(Chorus)
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else
I'd rather rescue myself
Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me
I will be there for him just as long as he will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be an equal thing
(Chorus)
I can slay my own dragon
I can dream my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free
(Chorus)
sigh..so sleepy!!!!
started off with math at 2pm..couldnt sustain that..went on to finish case study for econs block test corrections.gosh,i need to brush up on my concept.
hmm..left for church at city harvest.heh,was kidda late..oops.
anyway,juz so u kw..since gd fridae,i went to ziling's church in the morn and by default,i went to cityharvest later on,partly just to accompany kianhow..
but after awhile when kh and i separated to find our own frens for service,i felt sth there.God's presence?
He gave me three tasks to fufill after easter.
one with frenship
another with relationship
and thirdly abt gg back to serve in GB..
actually,i hope to believe that this cld be my subconscious self playin a trick on me,some sorta enlightenment but i guess..i was wrong.
that very same dae..i got an offline msn message from kumathi askin hows life for me and how she give up and regret after baptizing..so i promised her that i wnt baptize till im 21 and clear with my faith.
well..now,the only prob she has is that she dun like city harvest..so im still deciding where and which church to go to.but i have alrdy made frens with bryan's cell group..sigh.and timings are not right to her and she wants me to guarantee her not to donate so much to church,esp cityharvest.
well..i dunno..lets ask God to decide for me.
and i met yiling todae.lol,i thought she knew i was at church coz kh was looking for me after service on gd friday.she asked ziling about us and oops,i havent updated ziling on the whole situation.guess i will call her when day breaks.
yes..kh.im sorry tt its just my nature to express my emotions thru words openly so here it goes..
I miss U..and ur reassuring touch on last friday after my cross country.
but then again,i prayed.
prayers worked miracles.
u r at the back of my head now.. though i think of u still..i can live life without knowing ur problems or missing too much of u.
juz assure me that u will emerge stronger and happier after each predicament and im pretty sure u will.
stacey aka ur happy and quiet presence is alwaes here for u..like u want her to,buddy.
gtg slp now..zzz..nitezLabels: think with excellence
12:56 AM
