In this superficial world,
U may think thats all you get from what you see.
I am definitely not as SIMPLE as what you think,
Neither do I wish to live up to your expectations
So whatever you read,
And whether U like it or not,
It's none of my business to care..no matter how hard u try to make me.;P
Saturday, February 24, 2007
i juz realised tat i cannot b left alone for long...
i will turn so very emo..
been wonderin to myself..
DO I HAF A REAL IDENTITY OF WHO I REALLY AM?
i really dunno now..
alwaes thot that i was tat girl who loves guy sports n does them but now as time goes by,i haf discovered tat its not as simple as i thot..
i believe im 100% straight but i cant sae i like boys too..but i can definitely sae tat i dun c girls as my eye candy..
my life is seriously complicated..
mummy had been buyin all my cny clothes which r really feminine..my immediate reaction is tat i dislike it..
but as time passes,esp when i m alone,somehow,tis5% feminine side of me sprung up n take over my mind..
juz for tat one hr,i stop seein myself as a tomboy but rather a tall n confident young lady,walkin in plateforms n buying starbucks..
however,i still cld not let go of my years of soccer n cars..etc.
GOD-WAT IS WRONG WIF ME?
my life is transforming,i can feel it...but my reluctance to let go juz dwells in the past---
guys in sch calls me tomboy n uses the phrase,(she's not a girl wad)on me..i was happy abt it but why do i feel sick n tired of tis inside me??
when m i gonna find the true me in tis confusin world which i m livin in?
12:10 AM