In this superficial world,
U may think thats all you get from what you see.
I am definitely not as SIMPLE as what you think,
Neither do I wish to live up to your expectations
So whatever you read,
And whether U like it or not,
It's none of my business to care..no matter how hard u try to make me.;P
Saturday, January 10, 2009
i woke up at 8.30am tis mornin..cldnt really get back to slp after tt.
was rolling ard and pondering abt life by itself.didnt want to emo off either so i played candyman on my hp to keep me grooving.
2008 has indeed been a horrible year for me.bad memories which i do not wish to talk abt and i am amazed by how things cld actually turn for the better tis time...and even so more complicated...if i must sae.
also this jan,i realised how small this world is..
and how im inevitably closely linked to people i do not wish or at least,do not want to be related with.then again,i learnt many things tis mth and just happy and relieved to find some on my side all along.:)
despite the fact tt im working 6 days a wk tis mth and tryin my best to get on with life by meeting people after work and leaving the company on the 30th,it is pretty exhausting.
watever it is,i am clear of my priorities rite now..
-i need to grow spiritually and commit to church.(fellowship with my dearies too!)
-family(to spend more time with ah gong and my beloved grandparents)
-DENVERS cheerleading
-meet up with frens and plain chilling out and catching up..of course money is needed so yea..
-part time job.(emitasia or camp facilitators?)
"hey lawrence,have a safe trip back to the US!thanks for the dinner dates.nice knowing u better in real life instd of juz msning.love ur poshe!"
we went out on last friday nite and tis thursday.(2days ago)
cheer practice gt cancelled ytd due to some low attendance.zzz.took the morning shift juz for cheer.but oh wells,brandon asked me out and we went to,of all places,chinatown?lols.went to this desert stall before we had dim sum for dinner.we walked thru pagoda street to see the lights and all..omg,so crowded.sian,met one the receptionist from emitasia..zzz.sure kana suan..i wanted to cancel out on meeting dict coz brandon and i wanted to catch a movie but due to brandon's retardedness of thinking movies can be found at 7plus8,we forgo that idea.walked chinatown instead..
frens!!can u guys dun be so last minute??do u kw right after brandon's call,winston called and ask if we wanted to meet up.i feel bad when i haf to cancel out on ppl u kw.lols.aniwae,im thinking twice abt gg out with brandon again.hes the worst of both worlds(ask me wat i mean if ur close to me)he was gna meet another gal after me to go home tgt.felt like such a stand in.watever!
shall EMBRACE SINGLEHOOD and meet dict too.
lols..we went home tgt.
me:how do u even study here?its so noisy.
him:well,i was gonna meet u at j8 rite?so i decided to wait for u until u come la.
that was 11pm.
him:so..there was a cheer gathering even if there wasnt practice just now?
me:erm...not really but yea.brandon and i met up..were planning to catch a show but it was too late.
him:oh.
but nothing is going on..
i can feel that mutual need to drift away somehow.he looks a little more sad when i saw him.. and the worse is,im okay with it.
12:46 PM
