In this superficial world,
U may think thats all you get from what you see.
I am definitely not as SIMPLE as what you think,
Neither do I wish to live up to your expectations
So whatever you read,
And whether U like it or not,
It's none of my business to care..no matter how hard u try to make me.;P
Thursday, November 19, 2009
theres just sooo many random thoughts flowing thru my head..
i have no idea which of it i shld start this post with..
jerked out of bed by this dream of you..
its so disturbing sometimes when i just wanna keep you out of my head,
u just keep coming back..
haunting me like an unfinished business..
i pray,i scream i shout,i cry
but u never go away..
love is short-lived
yet,my life stretches on a long and tedious road..
slowly and steadily,
i clambered on the dusky road
and cling on..
at what cost?
i often ask myself..
whenever i keep my hopes up,
i watch them fall everytime..
ive no idea why God put me through this all the time..
but every step i take brings about a renewed step of faith..
and sometimes,i kw i hear His soft comforting breath pushing me forward..
its as if im losing trust in Man(literally!),and just putting my whole heart in the Heavenly One.
but life is not so simple..
and living in this complex,complicated world..where varying sexual orientations are becoming so accepting in society,i wonder sometimes why i cant be like the other different one out there..
at least,love wouldnt be so painful
at least,love wouldnt hurt so bad
at least,we'll understand one another..
at least,being loyal and nice would not cause u to be so hurt when u see ur past love betraying your trust..coz u no longer like boys.
and the best of all,these scumbags deserve it.
note to boys:
dun even think that a simple apology is enough just becoz you thought you found someone new and felt that your life has "moved on"..
stop living in your little comfort zone..stop living in your little world of denial
coz guess what? finding someone new when u havent settled your prev dealings are just gg to spin off another vicious cycle.so dun ever mess with us,girls..
oh,and if u ever do it out of obligations,screw it..
u guys are not worth our time.
to all my innocent beloved readers,sorry for my foul mood.
just venting out my frustrations about new age sensitive guys these days.
the rain is pouring down so hard..
1:27 PM