In this superficial world,
U may think thats all you get from what you see.
I am definitely not as SIMPLE as what you think,
Neither do I wish to live up to your expectations
So whatever you read,
And whether U like it or not,
It's none of my business to care..no matter how hard u try to make me.;P
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
phew...its been a long week!
but rather fun filled..:)quite a balance to my fun and play two wks ago.
for the past wk,i was working at new balance.grace's bf eugene recommended us the job.("for those ppl who finished their exams and have nothing better to do")LOL.
its a new experience really..working at the warehouse..even though it has only been a four days assignment,we were totally tired out.(-_-)shacked after every day.
rolland and i got one of the worst spots for the first day..the corner with no fans and ventilation..nothing but racks of cartons and a loud radio blaring through the warehouse..we were there for practically 5hours and our shirts were soaked with sweat just after lunch...
then again,nothing can be compared to the atmosphere..lighthearted and fun.i wanna find a company like this next time man! imagine coming to office everyday in sports shoes,tee shirt and jeans..using the conference table as a lunch table and walking into a showroom for next yr's design?!its just SPLENDID!:):)
-staceywasey is OFFICIALLY a new balance FAN!---
i hurt my toe while coming to work on wed and eugene's colleague loaned me a pair of NB shoes for that day.the feeling was soo comfortable.its like im floating with every step,no kidding!all these despite the workload we had on hand that day.:)
throughout the whole experience,i also got acquainted better with junni,char,bryan and esp roll whom we spent at least two days together with shoes and apparels.haha.(funny when roll had to sort out the sports bra)ROFLOL
on friday...despite talkin on the phone with christine till 5am,guessed my body clock began switching to early bird mode(9plus10?) and accompanied mummy and daddy to somewhere interesting..their childhood HANGOUTS!^_~
old kallang airport road..my mum misses the food there and she ordered soo many things.LOL.and yea,i guessed it just feels really warm to be surrounded by them telling me about their childhood days and how daddy used to bully mummy..LOl and oh,my PARENTS went to disco(CLUBBING)on their wedding night.hahaha..and i learnt that my paternal grandparents met in one of those peranakan tea parties way before their time.(see,clubbing runs in the blood huh?)hahaha
sometimes,i really admire my parents time man! life seems so carefree for them despite the fact that they were not very well off. though ive neighbourhood frens ard my home,the feelings really different..mum used to go swimming with daddy's sister and my aunts were all closely related. eventhough squabbles may occur between them,they learn to thrash things out.now,all we do is either to avoid or tolerate..
there isnt really true genuine love anymore,rite?
and when it gets too far,booom..the bubble burst!
same goes for relationships..its not like i really wanna start detesting boys now but seriously!!new age sensitive guys,get done with them MAN.everything will be a yesyes in the beginning for the first month and even when things get a little rough,we try to compromise and its still a yes on face value but not in the heart..then ooops,all of a sudden,irresponsiblity and eating of words..and then the five yr olds "i dun wanna talk to you anymore" attitude.in our context,(i'll ignore you for good!) ask yourself boys,and i literally mean BOYS..have u guys honestly grow up? u slowly and steadily paved urself into that girl's heart...curved out a part of yourself in her memories and then, vshoosh...
i admit that..me/we being girls are really too emotional sometimes and can get really selfish,but its this the way to handle a situation.? obviously,the girls are alwaes at a disadvantage..coz guys will do anything for girls when they are stimulated inside..
i hate being so sceptical..
i mean,ppl who kws me well enough will kw that i hang out with guys so much more than girls coz for the simple fact that i love sports and lan gaming...
this is reality for singaporean girls rite now..
and coz of that,i find myself wanting to pursue my love for sports like swimming and running alone or at least,with someone who clearly wont kw this sceptical side of me..yet.
sigh..i try to focus on the positive side
with God,work,and soon as stand chart performance is over,there will be cheer again..
but i cant help denying the fact that i get lost and confused just thinking about how to describe my emotions these days.
work and play do exhausts me physically but i cant help my emotional wellbeing from fallin sick..sick of trying to get away from thinking about you...as much as i dun wish to love and lose someone in just a few months..
im tired...tired of waking and jerking up in the middle of the nite..
tired of denying the truth that i had a recurring deja vu last december even before i knew who u were...or even seen u before.
and yet,i get utterly upset just thinking about losing this listening ear just because of certain circumstances...isit all worth it?one might be thinking,u have so many guy frens surrounding you..but would u believe if i said,few cld truly try to understand my mood..or even come close to it other than u.
admit it,boys are self-centred half the time...its either food,games,girls or sex.
Heather Lowell: when the storm breaks
She tightened her grip around his hands, painfully aware that she didnt know when she would see him again.
She tried to speak, to tell him about the emotions that were shaking her,but her throat closed with the tears she refused to shed in front of him..
stacey scribbles....
1:04 AM
